I have asked the Lord what am I to do with what He has done. He saved and healed our Maezie Ann-Grace on May 3, 2025. Now everything is different, even though we have gone back to mostly the same way of life as before the accident, we are changed. I don’t know what to do with it, or how to handle it sometimes. This miracle is a gift to be handled with respect and thanksgiving. Holding on too tight, is like burying a gift, and tossing it around, or trying to explain it away, is unthinkable.
God’s Word tells us all things are from God and are for His glory:
Oh, the depth of the riches
and the wisdom and the knowledge of God!
How unsearchable his judgments
and untraceable his ways!
For who has known the mind of the Lord?
Or who has been his counselor?
And who has ever given to God,
that he should be repaid?
For from him and through him
and to him are all things.
To him be the glory forever. Amen. (Romans 11:33-36)
When Jesus walked on the earth, He did a lot of life changing miracles. He healed people, He raised the dead back to life, He gave sight to the blind and made the deaf hear. Right after doing the miraculous, He would often tell the people He healed not to tell anyone.
God’s Word Is Alive
Being told by the One who healed to not tell of the miracle is hard to understand. There were reasons for these instructions at the time, but there is something we can learn from them now. The stories and instruction are in the Bible, which is the word of God. Our God is alive and so is his word. The Bible is meant for us to learn from, not just at the time it happened but for all people for all time. It makes me curios what we can learn today from these stories of miracles and healings and then Jesus’ instruction to not tell.
They Didn’t Listen
The people Jesus healed didn’t really listen to the instruction not to tell anyone, and neither do we. When God does something so amazing, keeping silent about it, would feel like hiding the truth.
As I think and pray through this, I believe our tenancies are the same now as they were when Jesus was walking the earth. It’s easy to get distracted by what God does in the moment and lose track of eternity and Who is doing the miracles. Heaven coming to earth isn’t about earthly things; it’s about His kingdom come His will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Sometimes we see His Kingdom come to earth, and sometimes we have to wait for heaven. Either way, it’s about His Kingdom and His glory.
Jesus is the way, truth and life. So, keeping our eyes and our lives on following Him, loving Him and knowing Him is the only true way of life. Knowing the stories of what He does in desperate moments is one thing, but knowing Him is everything we will ever need to know forever.
When our eyes see Him do the miraculous, we give praise and if we don’t see it yet, we praise Him anyway. But, we must look and see Him, not just what He does. Look Him in the eye, not just looking for His hand.
Locking onto the miracle, instead of the God of miracles can mess us up, get us off balance and out of line. As people give testimony of what God did in their lives, it draws us to God but if we stop there, if it becomes about us, then we have missed the mark, we have missed the point, we have missed the Glory.
It’s Not Up To Us
It’s not up to us to live up to the miracles God does in us or for us. Just like we can’t earn salvation we can’t earn or payback when God has done something miraculous. We just get to live with the knowledge and gratitude of what we know He did.
God tells us throughout scripture to remember what He has done so that we remember Him and who He is. The miracles and things that He does are to point our hearts and lives to Him.
Paul writes this:
“And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.” (Ephesians 3:18-19)
Desperate Need And Overwhelming Love
I have never felt such desperate need and overwhelming love in all my life, then the days following the accident. God gave us a miracle of life and healing that can’t be explained. Maybe that’s a reason Jesus told people not to tell. It’s not up to us to explain God and His ways.Testify and tell the truth, but don’t try to understand or explain the ways of God. His ways are not our ways.
We are forever changed. We can’t go back. What is done, He has done. Denying or exploiting the miracle God has done would be dishonest. God changed us. He changes the direction of our lives the desires of our hearts, and the plans of our future. Jesus changes everything and when He does we can’t go back, or we would be going without Him.
Going Back
As it was, once we got home, we tried to go back, pretend like it never happened, it was easier to move on then to lean in to what God did. It is painful think about how bad it really was and how it could have been life altering not life changing.
Despite the fact we saw a miracle, we saw a horrific accident first and it takes time to heal and process that kind of trauma. It felt easier to quit thinking about it, and quit talking about it, and forget the whole thing ever happened. But it is also impossible to forget. When I close my eyes I see it all over again. Then, two weeks later, right in front of our house, a bicycle rider got hit by a car and killed. We were all home. It was terrible and triggering, and shook us all and sent us spinning.
Cellie, our 10 year old, asked the question that night…. Why is this happening to us? Knowing why God allows what he does is not for me to know. Trusting He knows what He is doing is the only knowing we need. He uses it all. He wants us to remember and to lean in, not run away. Lean into the hard stuff and run to Him. It’s easy to celebrate a miracle, it’s hard to tell the story of the tragedy of our lives that need a miracle.
What Do We Do
As I press in with the Lord for answers to my question of what am I to do with this that you have done; it is to remember. Scripture commands us to remember the things God has done. Honestly, it is impossible to forget what you have seen, when you have seen something so powerful. Moving forward and leaning into life, tragedies and all, is what God has called us to. Having faith that God is with us wherever we go and whatever happens.
When Jesus did miracles on this earth, He didn’t instruct people to forget this ever happened and go back to living your life. He said don’t tell anyone. Maybe it’s more like; don’t try to explain the ways of God, it’s beyond us. It’s not about us, or the miracle, it’s all about Him and His glory. God’s Kingdom come, His will be done on earth as it is in heaven, are words to a prayer for all time.
This is God’s will for me in this miracle and in everything, right from His Word:
Rejoice always, pray constantly, give thanks in everything; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)
